Category: Buddhism

  • Here’s something I’ve considered writing about several times but haven’t actually done so until now. The reason I’ve wanted to write about it is because I really do believe it can help people, just like it’s helped me, a lot. The reason I’ve hesitated is because of its Zen origins. For whatever reason, some people…

  • I keep learning since getting clean new ways to approach life and I’ve realized I’m not just learning new things… I’m also un-learning old ones. Modern society tries to tell us that softness is weakness and hardness is strength. But I think that’s backward. Softness is the way of life. Green grass is soft, water…

  • I haven’t written anything in a while. I’ve been busy because I have a new grandson! I think I really needed the break from writing. I feel refreshed now and maybe even having a slightly different perspective than before. The time away from writing made me realize how easy it is to fall in to…

  • I am torn this way and that. My mind aching from the poisons of worry and fear. My body weak and stiff from tension. This foolish “I” can do nothing to rescue myself. Frequently lost in the delusion of permanence I grasp at this and that, Not understanding the illusory nature of all things. How grateful I am for Boundless…

  • “This sucks!”. That was the insight during meditation yesterday evening. No nirvana without samsara. No lotus without the mud. No “good” without the “bad.” Everything exists right here, right now, even when the here and now sucks out loud… or feels amazing. The last seven days or so have been tough for me. I think…

  • It can be hard to do anything when you’re sick. Depending on how sick you are, formal meditation can feel impossible. Sometimes just laying in bed is all you can manage. Two nights ago I didn’t meditate at all for the first time in months. That got me thinking about Dogen, the founder of Soto…

  • One of the most profoundly life changing changes in how I think and view the world since getting clean has been in regard to “other power” vs “self power.” This change in my thinking has brought me a kind of peace I didn’t even know was possible before. It hasn’t taken away every single struggle,…

  • I am and always have been someone who judges the truth of things, measures things, by lived experience. If a teaching doesn’t line up with my own lived experience, I dismiss it out of hand. For example, if someone says they love you but constantly belittles you, those words “I love you” lose their meaning.…

  • What a difference sleep makes! The previous two nights I barely slept at all. Both nights I fell asleep easy, but the dreams I’ve written about so many times before woke me up pretty soon after drifting off, and there was no going back to sleep after that. But last night I finally slept from…

  • This is a topic that feels a little strange for me to write about because there was a time in my life when I would not accept accountability in any form. To say I reacted badly when anyone tried to hold me accountable would be a massive understatement. I wasn’t willing to let others do…