Whispering Wyrd

Whatever you look for, you can usually find. My wife reminded me of this yesterday evening. If you look for goodness in people and in life, you can usually find it, and more happiness comes with it as a result. On the other hand, if you only look for what is bad, you’ll almost always find that too.

I remember when we first moved to New Mexico. We were living in Albuquerque at that time and one morning I went for a walk in a beautiful park just as the sun was coming up. I had been awake since very early that morning so I was there before most people arrived.

As the sun rose more, more and more people came to the park. There was an elderly man practicing Tai Chi, people walking their dogs, other people just walking and talking. I sat down on a bench and just enjoyed the morning.

Then a very elderly woman with her small dog came up. I was lost in thought because I didn’t even notice her coming. She sat down beside me and said, “You look like you could use a conversation.” I wasn’t upset or feeling down, but I guess she sensed I was deep in thought. I smiled at her and said, “That sounds good.”

She told me she had moved to New Mexico from New York back in the 70s. She came for love but the relationship didn’t work out for her. But she stayed in New Mexico anyway and made a life here. She asked where I was from, and I told her we had come from Texas.

She smiled and said, “New Mexico is a magical state. It’s sort of like a vortex. Whatever you look for, whatever kind of energy you seek out or put out into the world is exactly what comes back to you.” Over the years here I’ve heard a lot of people use that same word for New Mexico… “magical”. I know what they mean now.

This place is not like anywhere else I’ve ever been. There’s something special here that’s hard to explain or put into words. Maybe it’s the desert Southwest landscape, the mountains, the mix of cultures, Native American, Hispanic, and European, or the deep, rich history here. Or the sacredness of the high desert. Or a combination of all this, I don’t know. Whatever it is, it makes for a unique experience.

That elderly woman was definitely right. You can find what you are looking for, good or bad. I came here with my family looking for healing. I came here hoping to get clean from benzos. And that is exactly what I found. It’s exactly what I did.

I tried a lot of times before back in Texas, but I failed every single time. I don’t think peace, healing, or transformation are unique to New Mexico though. People can find what they need in a lot of places. But sometimes the conditions come together so perfectly that the change you’ve been looking for starts to happen really fast.

For me, those conditions came together here in New Mexico. For somebody else, it might be by the ocean, in the mountains, in a small town, or in a place they haven’t even discovered yet. Wherever that place may be, my wish is that anyone searching for healing, peace, and hope will find it too.

Amituofo
~Buck