Category: Benzos
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Disclaimer: I don’t like AI, so obviously I don’t take a neutral stance here. I know that AI can be a useful tool in certain circumstances. For very important things, like health, it’s crucial to get an actual doctor’s opinion. The same holds true for topics regarding recovery. AI makes a lot of mistakes. A…
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I haven’t published anything for the last several days. I’ve still been writing but those writings have just been for me. I needed the break. I want to publish because I want to, not because I feel like I have to. I don’t write as a job, and sometimes the things I’m working through need…
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There’s one part of every day that I dread. Bedtime. As the sun starts setting I can already feel it creeping in. The closer bedtime gets the more the anxiety builds. Ever since I got off alcohol and especially since getting off benzos, that feeling has gotten insanely intense. Then come the nightmares. I wake…
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What’s your favorite ways to deal with stress? Would you be willing to share them? What about those times when you’re way more stressed out than you realize until your body starts letting you know with pain? I think that’s exactly what happened to me. I wrote recently about how the multifocal PVCs that first…
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Life has taught me to be very careful about absolutist thinking. There are definitely certain things that are clearly wrong like cruelty, abuse, and intentionally hurting innocent people. Those aren’t subjects that require much debate. But when it comes to people, life is usually more complicated than just dividing everybody into “good” and “bad.” I’ve…
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I write a lot about how happy I am with my life these days, and I am happy. Very happy. But that doesn’t mean I don’t still struggle because I do. The last few days have been hard. We had to spend a lot of money replacing the entire roof on our home. Considering we…
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I remember when I was in the middle of detox, there were times I was too sick to read. So, I’m gonna make some videos for people who are in that place. Hopefully, I’ll get better as I go along.
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There’s something I would call a “unique kind of wreckage” that detox leaves behind even when it’s done. Not just in your body, anybody who’s been through it knows it takes the body apart too, but in the mind, the spirit, and the sense of who you even are anymore. I’ve mentioned before that Tai…
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My decades long internal self loathing, conflict, and strife are at an end. And I didn’t have to die to achieve that. When I look back on the decades I carried that self loathing, it makes me a little sad. Nobody should hate themselves that much for that long. But a lot of people do,…