Category: Benzos
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“This sucks!”. That was the insight during meditation yesterday evening. No nirvana without samsara. No lotus without the mud. No “good” without the “bad.” Everything exists right here, right now, even when the here and now sucks out loud… or feels amazing. The last seven days or so have been tough for me. I think…
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I feel exhausted today after really bad, fitful sleep last night. Those nightmares again. I finally got out of bed, made some tea, and sat looking out the window. I found myself searching for something good, something hopeful, so the dreams wouldn’t set the tone for the entire day. Nothing came at first. Then I…
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I had a post ready to publish today but just as I was about to hit “publish” I stopped myself. That post was driven by my own anger and I didn’t want to put that kind of energy out into the world. We’re all suffering enough already. I didn’t want to add to anyone’s suffering.…
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Have you ever had somebody try to bring up things from your past to hurt you or “cut you down to size”? Maybe you got clean or sober and now share your story so others know they can heal too. Most people, in my experience, are supportive of recovery and of someone trying to live…
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I wrote this today because I woke up this morning thinking about some people I knew in the past. People who never made it out of bitterness, anger, even hatred. Some never made it out of addiction too. You don’t have to be young to start over. You can begin again, reinvent yourself, and grow…
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Some people may think a thought is just a thought, just a passing thing in the mind with no real weight or consequences to it. But I can tell you from experience that thoughts can carry an insane amount of power over the body, especially the gut. A single thought can change how the body…
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One of the most profoundly life changing changes in how I think and view the world since getting clean has been in regard to “other power” vs “self power.” This change in my thinking has brought me a kind of peace I didn’t even know was possible before. It hasn’t taken away every single struggle,…
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I have an all-time favorite movie. It’s not flashy and the pace is slow. It’s a Japanese movie called Twilight Samurai. I’ve seen it many times over the years, and these days it moves me to tears every time I watch it. Now that I’m sober and clean I understand its message more deeply than…
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Whatever you look for, you can usually find. My wife reminded me of this yesterday evening. If you look for goodness in people and in life, you can usually find it, and more happiness comes with it as a result. On the other hand, if you only look for what is bad, you’ll almost always…
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Something I’ve seen quite a bit is a lot of people don’t realize addiction can happen with legally prescribed medications. Because a doctor wrote the prescription and kept sending refills, they assume it must be safe and couldn’t possibly be an addiction. But a lot of addiction cases come from legally prescribed substances. It’s not…