Category: Peace

  • Whatever you look for, you can usually find. My wife reminded me of this yesterday evening. If you look for goodness in people and in life, you can usually find it, and more happiness comes with it as a result. On the other hand, if you only look for what is bad, you’ll almost always…

  • While I try to write about uplifting or encouraging things, or at least end my posts that way, I have to admit something. I still struggle. There are days that are really hard to get through. It bothers me that sometimes, not often, but sometimes, even here at 16 months out, a thought crosses my…

  • “Words are energy and they cast spells, that’s why it’s called spelling.” – Bruce Lee “Of course words are magic. That’s why they call it spelling.” – Brian Holguin There’s a lot of power in words. They can hurt a person down to the soul, and they can heal too. I’m old enough to remember a…

  • My heart woke me up early this morning doing its disturbing “dance” that benzo withdrawal caused. It doesn’t happen as often these days, thankfully, but when it does there is no ignoring it, and no going back to sleep when it happens in the middle of the night. It’s one of the prices I paid…

  • I am and always have been someone who judges the truth of things, measures things, by lived experience. If a teaching doesn’t line up with my own lived experience, I dismiss it out of hand. For example, if someone says they love you but constantly belittles you, those words “I love you” lose their meaning.…

  • What a difference sleep makes! The previous two nights I barely slept at all. Both nights I fell asleep easy, but the dreams I’ve written about so many times before woke me up pretty soon after drifting off, and there was no going back to sleep after that. But last night I finally slept from…

  • For most of my life I had a habit of waiting for things to be “just right” before I would do something good for myself like getting clean or start healing an inner wound. But as life tends to go, those perfect conditions really just never really came. So I carried the pain and anger…

  • This is a topic that feels a little strange for me to write about because there was a time in my life when I would not accept accountability in any form. To say I reacted badly when anyone tried to hold me accountable would be a massive understatement. I wasn’t willing to let others do…

  • I was remembering a conversation I had many years ago. At the time, I had just gone from building power lines to working in IT for a massive online trading corporation with offices around the country. It was a big shift, not just in the work itself, but in the culture. I had to learn…

  • My wife said something this morning that made us both laugh. She looked at me and said, “You’re always in a good mood now, even when you haven’t slept… and it’s kind of creepy!” She said it because I hadn’t slept well last night, yet here I was this morning still happy, still in a…