Whispering Wyrd

My wife told me this morning that she woke up in the middle of the night thinking about something that might help someone today, that everyone needs an “anchor.” Something to hold on to, through daily life, through rough patches, or through recovery.

I thought that was a good point and idea. One of the reasons I write is to document my own recovery journey and what life looks like after active addiction. Also the hope that maybe something I share might help somebody else out there. Even if it’s just one person, that would be enough.

We were also talking this morning about people who got clean later in life. Some are well known, others are just everyday people like me. I mentioned David Gilmour because he wasn’t young when he got clean. He said it was his wife’s strength and love and an ultimatum she gave him that helped him turn things around.

The point is, there’s no “too late.” Whatever age you are right now, if you’re still breathing, it’s the perfect time. Right now. Some people have big platforms and can reach thousands. Most of us don’t though. But I don’t see that as necessarily a limitation. If one honest story reaches one person at the exact time they need it then it’s worth it. That could be a life changed and maybe even a life saved.

My wife is my anchor. Her strength, her patience, and her love are what kept me grounded when I couldn’t ground myself. My sons are part of that anchor too. They never gave up on me, and they still encourage me to keep going and to keep sharing my story.

There’s no way to fully express what that means to me. So I try to live my love and gratitude for them instead. Every day I try to be better for them and because of them. Even if everything else in my life fell away I would still keep going for them. Because they are my reason.

But everybody’s anchor doesn’t all look the same though. For some people it’s a person. For others it might be a pet or a place out in nature, a daily routine, or a prayer, a practice, or even just the decision to not give up for just this day.

If you’re going through a rough patch right now, if today has been one of those rough days please don’t forget that you don’t have to hold the whole world together. You just have to hold onto something. Find your anchor and keep it close.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Amituofo
~Buck

Snow in May. Photo credit, my son, Ty Britt