Category: consciousness
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I haven’t posted anything here in a while. A lot has happened between my last post and now, and I’ll do my best to describe what I experienced. It may not look like it has much to do with recovery, but I believe it has everything to do with recovery. At least for me, I…
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Disclaimer: I don’t like AI, so obviously I don’t take a neutral stance here. I know that AI can be a useful tool in certain circumstances. For very important things, like health, it’s crucial to get an actual doctor’s opinion. The same holds true for topics regarding recovery. AI makes a lot of mistakes. A…
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There’s something I would call a “unique kind of wreckage” that detox leaves behind even when it’s done. Not just in your body, anybody who’s been through it knows it takes the body apart too, but in the mind, the spirit, and the sense of who you even are anymore. I’ve mentioned before that Tai…
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My decades long internal self loathing, conflict, and strife are at an end. And I didn’t have to die to achieve that. When I look back on the decades I carried that self loathing, it makes me a little sad. Nobody should hate themselves that much for that long. But a lot of people do,…
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I am torn this way and that. My mind aching from the poisons of worry and fear. My body weak and stiff from tension. This foolish “I” can do nothing to rescue myself. Frequently lost in the delusion of permanence I grasp at this and that, Not understanding the illusory nature of all things. How grateful I am for Boundless…
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Some people may think a thought is just a thought, just a passing thing in the mind with no real weight or consequences to it. But I can tell you from experience that thoughts can carry an insane amount of power over the body, especially the gut. A single thought can change how the body…
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What could possibly happen on a walk? More than I could have ever imagined before. That’s for sure. I’ve increased the time and length of my daily walks and just being outdoors more in general. It’s easier this time of year because Spring is finally starting to show itself here in Santa Fe, and the…
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I grew up being taught that meaning, comfort, and salvation came from believing the right things about a (to me) distant God. Defined in ancient books, filtered through doctrine, and guarded by rules. I tried, for many years, to hold those beliefs. But they never “took” in me. Instead, they made me feel boxed in, anxious, and…