Category: Sober
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Until recently, when I looked back on my life, I did so with regret. A lot of regret. Regret for things I said and did in my younger years, especially during active alcoholism and addiction. It felt like my life was a fast, loud car with my foot pressed all the way down on the…
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Something I have found since getting clean and something I now practice every single day is gratitude. Please don’t think I say that lightly either. Gratitude has really changed my life in ways I never could have expected or imagined. In my younger years, especially during active alcoholism and addiction, I didn’t feel grateful for…
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This last Saturday we went out for the day. We didn’t travel far at all, just the seven miles from our place to the Plaza here in Santa Fe, but it felt like a little vacation. As we were walking around, my wife said something that I thought was really important. She said, “This would…
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There was a discussion going on today that I couldn’t help getting involved in. It was about the “Higher Power” part of programs like AA and NA. I already knew that some people struggle with that part of the steps. But until today I didn’t realize just how many. For some people, hearing a lot…
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I made it through that wave/PTSD episode I wrote about the other day. I made it through because of a few things, but mostly because of people. So this post is simply to say, “Thank you.” There’s no adequate way to convey how much it meant to me that so many of you reached out.…
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I was having a good day early yesterday. Just going about my daily life when, out of nowhere, memories came flooding in. It was like someone threw open a door I didn’t even know was unlocked and allowed the monsters in. One memory at first, then another, then many more. Before I even realized what…
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Like many people in recovery, there are things I have said and done that I regret. Words I wish I had never spoken. Choices I wish I had made differently. Years I wish I could re-do with the clarity I have now. But I can’t. And neither can you. What we can do is refuse…
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Some mornings, the path isn’t a windy mountain trail. It’s the distance between your bed and the bathroom. It’s the weight of your tired arms and legs, the fog in your brain, and the familiar ache of a tired body. Today is one of those days for me. I’m writing this on very little sleep,…
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Today I’m getting to exercise my ability to choose the good. I remember a long time ago a man I had a lot of respect for told me that when things are rough is when we really get to see that we have choices in how we react to unpleasant situations. I was telling him…
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I wrote recently about how much I love good conversations. Since then, I’ve had a couple of conversations that have stayed with me in a pretty deep way. One was with someone in recovery, and one was with someone who’s never had to navigate recovery at all, but like everyone else, has still had their…
Whispering Wyrd 