Category: Benzos
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Until recently, when I looked back on my life, I did so with regret. A lot of regret. Regret for things I said and did in my younger years, especially during active alcoholism and addiction. It felt like my life was a fast, loud car with my foot pressed all the way down on the…
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Something I have found since getting clean and something I now practice every single day is gratitude. Please don’t think I say that lightly either. Gratitude has really changed my life in ways I never could have expected or imagined. In my younger years, especially during active alcoholism and addiction, I didn’t feel grateful for…
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There was a discussion going on today that I couldn’t help getting involved in. It was about the “Higher Power” part of programs like AA and NA. I already knew that some people struggle with that part of the steps. But until today I didn’t realize just how many. For some people, hearing a lot…
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I made it through that wave/PTSD episode I wrote about the other day. I made it through because of a few things, but mostly because of people. So this post is simply to say, “Thank you.” There’s no adequate way to convey how much it meant to me that so many of you reached out.…
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I was having a good day early yesterday. Just going about my daily life when, out of nowhere, memories came flooding in. It was like someone threw open a door I didn’t even know was unlocked and allowed the monsters in. One memory at first, then another, then many more. Before I even realized what…
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Some mornings, the path isn’t a windy mountain trail. It’s the distance between your bed and the bathroom. It’s the weight of your tired arms and legs, the fog in your brain, and the familiar ache of a tired body. Today is one of those days for me. I’m writing this on very little sleep,…
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Some people seem to find their path early in life. I didn’t. But I’ve found it now. “Better late than never” isn’t just a saying, it’s definitely a truth. I’ve known people who never found their purpose. I’ve known others who never got the chance because addiction, prison, or death took that chance from them.…
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Here’s another thing I’ve noticed since getting clean… disagreements don’t have to be disasters. That probably sounds obvious to a lot of people. But for those of us who have trauma or lived through addiction, disagreements can feel very different. They don’t just feel like differences of opinion, they feel like personal rejection. Like being…
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Actor Eric Dane recently died at 53. I didn’t know much about him beyond the fact that he had ALS, but I saw part of a video he recorded for his family. In it he told them something simple but very powerful… “Live now.” Don’t wait. Don’t assume you’ll have time later. Live now. That…
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It was cold and windy yesterday as I took my daily walk. Very cold. But unless the weather is utterly unbearable, I walk. I even walk in the rain here. For me, there’s just something about being in and surrounded by the mountains that heals me and clears my mind. After I complete my rounds…
Whispering Wyrd 