Whispering Wyrd

I don’t know if everyone has this experience with social media, but I’ve definitely been seeing more of it lately. Posts, especially on Facebook, that start with “Breaking News” in big, bold letters. I almost always click the “x” to hide them. Supposedly it helps tailor your feed. Maybe it does, maybe it doesn’t. Either way, I don’t want to see it.

Because it’s almost never actually news. It’s nonsense. Political noise, outrage, half truths, or just plain nonsense dressed up to look urgent. And it’s exhausting.

I mostly keep Facebook around for one reason… family. I have people I care about living hundreds of miles away, and without it, I probably wouldn’t hear from them nearly as often. So I check in, see what they’ve shared, maybe post a link to something I’ve written and that’s about it.

Everything else feels like poison. No matter how carefully I try to curate what I see, following family, recovery pages, and a few things that actually uplift, there’s always something that slips through. Something loud and angry. Something designed to pull you in and get a reaction from you. And here lately I just don’t have it in me.

I haven’t been sleeping well for over a week now. Last night was worse than most. I woke up in the early hours with my heart doing its old familiar thing, those PVC runs that don’t necessarily hurt, but are impossible to ignore. After that, sleep wasn’t coming back.

So today I’m running on empty. And when you feel like that, when your body is tired and your mind is worn thin, your perspective changes. Or maybe it clarifies. It just feels like too much And something in me just says, “I don’t care.” Not in a cold or indifferent way and not in a “nothing matters” way. Just in a “I’ve had enough” sort of way.

I don’t care about outrage that’s manufactured to try to get me hooked or scrolling. What I do care about is family, recovery and getting through the day with some measure of peace. I don’t care about anything wrapped in the words “Breaking News”. For me, the healthiest thing I can do when I see those things is just say what I’m saying today, “I don’t care about this.”

Amituofo
~Buck

Photo Credit: My son, Ty Britt